That man

One man loves you
That man loves you wholeheartedly

he follows you around like a shadow everyday

That man is laughing and crying

Just how much…how much more do I have to gaze at you alone
This love that came like the wind

This beggar-like love

If I continue this way, will you love me?

Just come a little nearer…a little more

If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back

I who love you am next to you now

That man is crying.

That man is timid

So he learned how to laugh

That man has many stories that he can't even tell his best friend

So his heart is full of tears

That's why, That man

You, he loved you

Because you are just same as him

Yet another fool, yet another fool

Can't you hug me before you go?

I want to receive love, baby

Everyday in my heart,

Just in my heart,

I shout and

That man is next to her even today.

Do you know That man is me?

You're not pretending that you don't know, right?

You really don't know cause you're a fool.

Just how much... how much more do I have to gaze at you alone

This love that’s like a fool

This beggar-like love

If I continue this way, will you love me?

Just come a little nearer...a little more...

If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back

I who love you is next to you now

That man is crying.

Today...today the weather make me inspired again as always. Counting the days, there's only less than 1 month left. But still i can move on even a step to get closed to her. But then, i still hoping & pray there's gonna be an ordinary miracle to happen by God. I tell my heart it can't. I tell it to stop being this way. Holding my breath to stop it from beating. But my lips start to quiver and my eyes fill with tears. And I fall to pieces with a sigh.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.”

“Smile when it hurts most.” ;)

Yesterday...yeah, yesterday such a knocking off day for me...till now...im totally just can't help my self by doing that...and now, i decided to stopped all this for awhile even though i don't have much time left...all i can only do now is...just hope & pray...sorry...

as the walls crumbled and mist cleared, 
i heard the sounds of the locks 
coming undone and drop down 
with a clatter setting me free;

i sit up and rub my eyes, 
a feeling of love and 
of true happiness 
now fill my empty heart;

walking down the gravel path 
out of the thunder and the storm 
spring forth beautiful flowers 
born again from the rain;

as a brand new adventure begins, 
this is the time for you and me, 
overwhelmed by the intensity of emotions, 
dancing to the rhythm of love, 
holding your hand i encompass you within my soulcrackcrack

today is the 4th day of my challenge to get close to her but...still i can't move on...(too shy even the snail not shy as me)...but still hoping for an ordinary miracle to happen...;)

PARIS

i wish...i wish i can bring her here...:)